Trying to make something out of nothing, pushing daisies up.
Dammit, dammit, dammit.
I sometimes wonder what's wrong with me.
Why?
Why do I let this happen
and more importantly
How does this keep happening?
It's done, it's over, I thought it was.
Why does she do this to me?
I can't forget the past
It won't let me go.
Why did she ask?
She's a soon to be married woman.
Supposedly.
It makes no sense.
She only leaves me with questions and a newly opened void.
*sigh*
Women.
6:01 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
Happy fucking new years.
Leith, if you're reading this, first time in my life I really really really wanted to get plastered with ya buddy.
Tonight has really just shown me that I'm really all alone now. My friends have faded faster than I ever thought.
No one bothered to call.
I wasn't invited.
Everyone's having fun without me and I'm all alone....
Last year that I'm here with my friends and I'm without them.
How's that for your pathetic irony.
Fuck off.
Cheers.
5:24 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
If life won't wait, I guess it's up to me.
7 months to go.
I love talking with my Champlain friends, playing online with them.
I have the feeling I'm gonna freak the first two weeks about being away from home. I've never really been AWAY away from home. except for 5 days in Canada but I had my best friends behind me....I have no one I know.
It's hard for me to leave this behind........especially when I feel like I never really explored this town.
Now everything seems rushed.
I can see Graduation coming tomorrow.
I swear I will cry so bad on that day.
I gotta spread my wings and fly right, gotta go where I need to, be who I need to be, find my own destiny out there.
Carpe Diem.
8:15 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
I really can't get that song out of my head, that new song by Simple Plan.
It’s like we’re going through the motions
Of the scripted destiny
Tell me where’s our inspiration
If life wont wait
I guess it’s up to me
Things are already starting to fall apart between me and my friends. I could feel it for a couple months now.
I know I'm leaving...leaving them, the first people to really support me and got me through school alive.
I lost my best friend of ten years and he wants nothing to do with me anymore.
Francis is busy with his girl, can't blame him.
Travis is always home.
The world is telling me I need to go but my heart longs to be here, to go back the the moment when we were all together, talking in the circle that we used to talk in before heading into school. I guess it's all hitting me like a cinder block. Destiny is telling me to go, I guess I have to. I have to start new right? I don't want to, part of me likes what I had, likes being in this small town, likes being a kid.
Starting with a clean slate sounds so good but I never realized what I have to give up. I really hope they forgive me.
I want to say I'll be back, say that things will never change...
They already have.
Won’t look back
When I say goodbye
We’re gonna leave this world behind me
Gonna take what’s mine tonight
‘cause every wasted day
Becomes a wasted chance
You’re gonna wake up feeling sorry
‘cause life won’t wait
I guess it’s up to you
7:50 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
Christmas eve, one big fun day.
Went to grandparents with Tracy, was pretty fun.
Everyone knew that I got into Champlain but no one really said anything about it except trash me for wanting to go to a selective school.
See I'm the only one in my family (history mind you) that went to a selective college, only 2 others actually WENT to college and finished.
I was told that I shouldn't bother trying.
It's really upsetting but fuck them all, I know what I'm gonna do and I'm gonna flip them all off when I'm done.
I don't need them. I only need myself.
9:47 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
First off.
Champlain.
Amazing.
Got in.
Can't wait.
Tuition is a bitch
But whatever
They set up this social networking site. accepts.champlain.edu
I think it's genius. Basically you meet others in your major BEFORE you go to college. You can meet them, share interests and what's cool is that you can even find a roommate from a nother state and be all set up before you go.
Current Possible Roommates:
Justin
Nick
Love it. I think the coming months will be good even though I doubt our school will get it's act together enough to finished that track we've been waiting for. Really irks me but that's for another post. I have certain things to accomplish, create my game, head to a show or two, get my license and really see spring before heading out of this ghost town...leaving my friends...
Dammit I'll miss them.
9:04 PM
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Author: Will Fallows