If life won't wait, I guess it's up to me.
7 months to go.
I love talking with my Champlain friends, playing online with them.
I have the feeling I'm gonna freak the first two weeks about being away from home. I've never really been AWAY away from home. except for 5 days in Canada but I had my best friends behind me....I have no one I know.
It's hard for me to leave this behind........especially when I feel like I never really explored this town.
Now everything seems rushed.
I can see Graduation coming tomorrow.
I swear I will cry so bad on that day.
I gotta spread my wings and fly right, gotta go where I need to, be who I need to be, find my own destiny out there.
Carpe Diem.
8:15 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
I really can't get that song out of my head, that new song by Simple Plan.
It’s like we’re going through the motions
Of the scripted destiny
Tell me where’s our inspiration
If life wont wait
I guess it’s up to me
Things are already starting to fall apart between me and my friends. I could feel it for a couple months now.
I know I'm leaving...leaving them, the first people to really support me and got me through school alive.
I lost my best friend of ten years and he wants nothing to do with me anymore.
Francis is busy with his girl, can't blame him.
Travis is always home.
The world is telling me I need to go but my heart longs to be here, to go back the the moment when we were all together, talking in the circle that we used to talk in before heading into school. I guess it's all hitting me like a cinder block. Destiny is telling me to go, I guess I have to. I have to start new right? I don't want to, part of me likes what I had, likes being in this small town, likes being a kid.
Starting with a clean slate sounds so good but I never realized what I have to give up. I really hope they forgive me.
I want to say I'll be back, say that things will never change...
They already have.
Won’t look back
When I say goodbye
We’re gonna leave this world behind me
Gonna take what’s mine tonight
‘cause every wasted day
Becomes a wasted chance
You’re gonna wake up feeling sorry
‘cause life won’t wait
I guess it’s up to you
7:50 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
Christmas eve, one big fun day.
Went to grandparents with Tracy, was pretty fun.
Everyone knew that I got into Champlain but no one really said anything about it except trash me for wanting to go to a selective school.
See I'm the only one in my family (history mind you) that went to a selective college, only 2 others actually WENT to college and finished.
I was told that I shouldn't bother trying.
It's really upsetting but fuck them all, I know what I'm gonna do and I'm gonna flip them all off when I'm done.
I don't need them. I only need myself.
9:47 PM
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Author: Will Fallows
